The Moth's Passion...
by Joseph Immel
You open your wings, your mouth, your eyes. You open your hand and breathe. The string
begins to vibrate. It shudders. And then...
As your hand begins its journey from the space flowing through the channels between
it and my hot flustered skin, I see the rings in your eyes growing larger, the love
pouring into hate and those same eyes, seconds before, pleading on the brink of
insanity "no more".
And your hand completes its circle, your fingers flow like a river passing through my
face like the soul of ghosts. The pain grows inside you and the center of the flower.
Passion, a cannibal, a silent black moth, opens its wings and absorbs the moon and flies
in our shadows.
And the cave opens for us, and you enter into the shadows of possession, and you scratch
me with guilt. And the tips of your fingers spread their wings on my face. And still your
blood flows and I want to devour your moth.
And your mouth opens and breathes and screams. And you want to destroy the flying moth
of your hatred that fills your liquor with music.
Here it comes that hand. And on the inside I am smiling before it cracks my lip.
Because I have smelled your "forget-me-not" hands stretched with petals. And my branches are
bare and my tree stands before you and your hand comes. And I want to believe in that hand.
And I am smiling because the blood in that hand makes the nights last forever.
Now come closer to these caves, they are yours. In their fires I smell your moth burning,
it grows inside me. And I see the tired strength fading from your eyes. And I see your hand
high in the air, falling, like your soul falling, like your pleasures on this earth dying,
and it purges itself too against my face.
Here comes your hand and your feet and your teeth and your knives. And still I love
you my terrible, terrible Medusa, my flower. And still I must have your moth. My beauty
fades, my spirit shuddering in the shadows, but still I am addicted to your moth and my
despair.
We tie ourselves together with hatred when the blood spills, when the wings open
on your lips into the disease of this struggle. We tie ourselves together with the
mystery of death and opium and your flowering poppy. Where is the knife? Where is the
knife? Not in my worn-out broken heart.
But if my life spills again through these new wounds? I will die again knowing your
flower. It will fill us with screams. My blood can still spill like these tears but it
also spills "inside you."